Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Debbie G., Arlington Heights, IL, Arlington Heights, IL

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
So
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.



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aaliona SILVER said...
on Aug. 31 2011 at 10:24 pm
aaliona SILVER, Spencer, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
"Morning is a new sheet of paper for you to write on." ~Eve Merriam

This was sweet and simple, yet very powerful. I'm a little confused by believing in angels and reincarnation, but overall, it's a piece that makes me think. And that's my criteria for a great piece.

on Aug. 31 2011 at 7:57 pm
AbstractFragment GOLD, Dalmatia,, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
"You know what it feels like when all your teeth are falling out really slowly and you don't realize and then you notice that, well, they're really far apart. And then one day... you don't have any teeth anymore." - Where the Wild Things Are

This is great, I absolutely love this.

on Aug. 31 2011 at 7:13 pm
singinginthegardn GOLD, Cowell, Massachusetts
16 articles 2 photos 158 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say." ~Anaïs Nin

Wow..this was amazing..beautifully breath-taking. FANTASTIC job at hinting here and there..then finally tying it up with a pale blue bow..sad but stunning! <3333 you have some serious skill

on Aug. 31 2011 at 5:53 pm
livelovesmile GOLD, Gaithersburg, Maryland
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Favorite Quote:
I am like a star burst. A juicy contradiction. I'm hard to figure out, but when you get to my center, your suprised! It's not what you thought it would be, huh.

This poem is so awestriking, and beautifully sad. 

Would you mind checking out my poetry "Captured By Reflections"  
"Girl Next Door" and "Longing For Those Days"? I would love to get feedback from the writer of such a beautifu lpoem or anyone else on this site. I'm new to Teen Ink and would really appreciate feedback. Thanks.


soldout said...
on Aug. 31 2011 at 4:29 pm
So tragic, I can't even use an exclamation mark- it would be too abnormal. Honestly, at first I just stared at the words. I couldn't piece it together. But now I understand, and like Carolyn says she believes in angels, I believe that there IS some writing superstars on teenink. This is pure amazing. Five stars, overflowing.

on Aug. 31 2011 at 3:34 pm
TheAmazingJoysie BRONZE, Cork, Other
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Favorite Quote:
'Your going to die anyway so you might as well craft.' The Anticraft

hey im not quite sure but did carolyn die or am i just missing it great poem tho

on Aug. 31 2011 at 3:29 pm
TempusFugit BRONZE, Gahanna, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"A government big enough to give you everything you need, is a government big enough to take away everything that you have...." Thomas Jefferson

America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves.
-Abraham Lincoln

Laughter is America's most important export.
-Walt Disney
...
Happiness depends upon ourselves.
-Aristotle

I really liked reading this poem, and it's sad how Carolyn doesn't believe in smiles. Somehow, that reminds me of someone I know...

Good Job!


darksunshine said...
on Aug. 31 2011 at 2:08 pm
LOL

on Aug. 31 2011 at 12:24 pm
WeAllBurn PLATINUM, Vermilion, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." ~Mahatma Gandhi

This is breathtaking. <3. amazing. 5/5.

 

please read my work and tell me what you think. this is so amazing. (:


on Aug. 31 2011 at 10:41 am
forgottenpenname GOLD, Troy, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Carpe diem."

I can't tell you how many times I've read this poem, but I just absolutely love it. :) This is so amazing!!

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on Aug. 31 2011 at 10:03 am
Hejlna BRONZE, Portland, Maine
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this is absolutely incredible. i love this poem!!!!

on Aug. 31 2011 at 9:23 am
I dont get it. Could somebody explain it to me!

on Aug. 31 2011 at 8:46 am
LittleMissSunshine08_11 SILVER, Boston, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad. ~Norm Papernick

Wow... I LOVED this poem. I liked how you made it lighter (not completely light, but not too heavy either) at the beginning, sounding like the slightly exasperated best friend, then at the end you twisted it around and hit us with something deep and moving. Keep up the amazing work!

on Aug. 31 2011 at 8:19 am
This was truly beautiful with the vivid descriptions and all the emotions that seemed to be poured into this poem. I especially love how you used the phrase "suffocating on nothing" and when you used "the phone just rings and rings and rings". At that point, I just knew something was going to happen. Great use of imagery! Really enjoyed reading it. It was like an unfolding story for me.

on Aug. 31 2011 at 6:34 am
wordweaver96 PLATINUM, Winchester, Kentucky
37 articles 2 photos 255 comments

Favorite Quote:
" It is not our abilities but our choices that show who we truly are. "
Albus Dumbledore


See, we really DON'T have anything to fear but fear itself!

This is sort of hauting, but what increases it, for me, personally, is the photo. The girls look exactly like two people I know very well. I moved, and we've never visited.

on Aug. 29 2011 at 4:22 pm
Anonymous_7 SILVER, Branson, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
-The only time you can get away with murder is when writing a book!

love this! Great idea!

on Aug. 9 2011 at 7:49 pm
sabrina biton, Hollywood, Florida
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This has become my future inspiration for anything I'll ever write. I've always considered writing poetry but I've never had something to pull me in the direction of motivation in writing it. This has. This is so beautiful and motivating for me. Thanks, you'll forever be my idol.

on Aug. 9 2011 at 3:53 pm
Lola_Black GOLD, Harrison, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"I've always been famous. It's just everybody's just now finding out." --Lady Gaga

This is amazing! The cogs started turning in my head at the last stanza, and when I read the last line my heart stopped. This is so brilliantly sad, I love it! Keep writing!

on Aug. 9 2011 at 9:08 am
purplequeen BRONZE, Boston, Massachusetts
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Beautiful!!!

comment on mine now and i will comment on yours.!!!!!!!

Comment on all of my poems and you will get the same.

Comment on mine!!!!!!!!!!


on Aug. 4 2011 at 10:38 am
JTboiiDrama PLATINUM, Chicago, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
It is what it is

AWESOME!!! IT COULDNT BE BETTER!!! GREAT!!!


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