A Part of the Past

i miss her so much,
my fists are so clutched,
it was such a big crush,
now my dreams are just dust,
crushed with love and distrust,
must i keep thinking about her touch?,
i cant hide my pride long enough to see,
that maybe it was me,
maybe the way i acted or being too meen,
ill never find out because shes gone
ill never find out what i did wrong
wont be able to say that i loved you all along