What Used To Be, Effects Me Now

August 5, 2008
By Lindsey Russo, Deltona, FL

My heart has been ripped out and torn apart,
Nobody ever seems to care.
No matter what I do,
My life is never fair.

All the anger built up inside of me
Never gets a chance to be seen
This is because I don't want others
To think of me differently.

But why do I even care anymore?
Nobody is ever there for me.
So what if I open up,
Will there then be?

Every breath I take is another burning memory from the past.
For once I want everything to be alright
Instead, everything just seems to crash.

People say they know what I'm going through,
They say they know exactly where I stand,
When really it's just me and God walking hand in hand.

I'm tired of living the life I have been living these past few years.
But I still stand strong because I'm still going through my fears.

Watching kids going to the park hurts me inside.
To see thats who I used to be
Until my father left my side.

The author's comments:
When I wrote this poem I had just come home from the park and it really made me realize how much I truly missed my father. My parents have been divorced for seven years and it has been a rocky road ever since the divorce took place. He is currently in a rehab and he will be out in October 2008 after being in it for a year. I would really like for teens to never give up because even though my parents got divorced, I just kept my head up and he is now getting help for his problem and things are getting better. Just always believe in yourself and you will be able to get though any obstacle in life.

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This article has 3 comments.

blue eyes said...
on Sep. 12 2008 at 2:19 am
you are doing good. and you will do good in the years to come.do not give up.

tmhurts2 said...
on Aug. 20 2008 at 10:12 pm
I'm sorry you have to experience this in your young life, but you will be a better person and one day a better parent for it. You're a survivor.

lbrig429 said...
on Aug. 20 2008 at 3:32 pm

This poem is awesome! You say no one can relate to you and I feel that way too. My parents got divoreced two years ago and whenever I see kids with both their parents together..my eart yearns to be like them.

Good job!


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