IT'S SO HARD WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, OR SAY, WHEN YOU HEAR SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU CRY AND ALL YOU CAN DO IS WONDER "WHY"... WHY DID THIS HAPPEN? WHY WAS I ONE TO BE AFFECTED? WHY WON'T SHE GET BETTER? WHY CAN'T THE DOCTORS FIX IT? WHY CAN'T I WAKE UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE? AND, WHY CAN'T THIS ALL JUST BE A DREAM? YOU GET CALLS ASKING WHATS HAPPENING, HOW IS SHE? YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO YOURSELF HOW ARE YOU GOING TO TELL OTHERS? KIDS, THE KIDS DON'T KNOW YET, SUCH A YOUNG AGE WILL THEY UNDERSTAND? NOW WE ALL STAND IN A CIRCLE AROUND HER HOSPITAL BED WITH TEARS FLOWING DOWN OUR CHEEKS, WE PRAY FOR HER SOUL, MAY IT REST IN PEACE, AS WE WATCH HER HEART RATE DISINTAGRATE, SLOWLY IT GOES DOWN ONE BY ONE 66,65,64,63, I DON'T BELIEVE THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING, 62,61,60, SHE IS THE CLOSEST PERSON TO ME THATS EVER DIED. ONLY LOVE AND SORROW FILL THE ROOM AS IT HAPPENS, 5,4,3,2,1, FLATLINE, SOMETHING IN YOU WISHES HER HEART WILL START BEATING AGAIN, BUT DEEP DOWN YOU KNOW IT'S OVER. A PERSON YOU LOVE MORE THEN MOST OTHERS JUST PASSED, YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY QUESTIONS, FUNERAL OPTIONS THIS ISN'T THE THING TOU WANT RIGHT NOW, ALL YOU FEEL LIKE DOING IS CURLING INTO A BALL IN THE DARKNESS AND NEVER COMING OUT BUT YOU FEEL YOU HAVE TO BE STRONG FOR YOUR FAMILY AND THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH. WE ARE ALL THINKING THE SAME THING, MAY HER MIND, BODY AND SPIRIT REST IN PEACE AND THE KIDS ASK WHY MOMMY ISN'T COMING HOME AND ALL I CAN SAY IS, GOD NEEDED SOME GOOD MOMMY'S FOR ALL THE KIDS IN HEAVEN AND YOU KNOW HE MADE A GOOD CHOICE IN WHO ONE OF THEM WAS GOING TO BE!