This One Is For You - Anorexia.

May 7, 2012
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This one is for you,
For every day you owned,
For every command i obeyed,
For the lies,
The only food you allowed me,
For you constant screaming,
In private - in public - and in sleep,
For taking every inch of my being,
Voice - strength - and more,
And leaving me with a hollowed shell,
A sharp edged skeleton,
For turning my young body into the ruins,
Of a decaying ancient building,
For taking what was mine,

This one is for you,
For inviting me into your world,
I hated every second,
For the life you claimed from behind my eyes,
Im claiming it back,
For the friends you said i didn't need,
We are laughing at you right now,
For the cries of help you silenced,
For taking my womanhood and making me into a child again,
For wrongly telling me that the rules of happiness manifested in appearance,
For the whispers you provided when i looked into your mirrors,
For making me believe that i should be;
Eternally wrong, ugly and sorry,

This is to let you know,
That for what it's worth,
you can have your identity back,
To let you know how good it felt the day i realised -
the power to fight was in me
To let you know that i ate breakfast today,
And i enjoyed it,
To let you know that every day is a struggle,
But i will never give up,
This is to show you,
That i am not the brittle one you last saw,
In fact; you may hardly recognise me,
To show you that my body is changing,
And however hard it may be to adjust,
Being healthy is incredible,
To show you my posture right now,
As I look down upon you with my head held high,

So this is to tell you,
That i never want to hear your voice again,
To tell you that you are not welcome,
In fact, you never were,
To tell you, and everyone that i am beginning to like myself -
Inside and out,
To tell you that you company is not required,
At the meal i will enjoy with my loved ones tomorrow,
To tell you i am winning,

This moment is for you,
For you to hear me when i say,
The only thing that was every ugly about me,
Was you.





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