I remember the old life....
sometimes I don't want to forget it.
I want to hold on to the memories and the sensations.
I want to relive the feelings.....
I want to remember why I regret.
I want to remember what it was like to be close to you,
to know somebody cared....
It was a long time ago....
too long to hold on too.
I don't want to forget you.
I don't want to forget who you were to me....
how i felt about you.
Your eyes, your smile.
How it all seemed reassuring.
You listened to me.....
it seemed like everyword.
The distance now is killing me.
I remember how I'd watch you breath at night......
I didn't go to sleep until I knew you were fine.
I'd give almost anything to have one more night.
One more night to watch you breath.
To be assured that you are alright.
Now you seem so far away.
And every breath is a gasp.
Trying to hold on to the tears.
Part of me wants to let it out......
to remember to miss you.....
but that larger part forces it all back inside.
It sounds like I'm choking...
My heart is breaking.
Why am I so breathless?