I hate you
For pulling her, ripping her away.
For holding her
Distorting her perception of herself
She's gorgeous.
I hate you.
I'm afraid to say I hate her.
Because you caused it.
I can't blame her.

Her sick, pained, self.
She hurts me.
Even still
I still can't stay away.
I want to.
I want to escape, start over
But I can't.
I have to stay
To see this through
I don't want to.
I want to run, scream, be free
But I can't pull myself away from her.

I want to guard her,
Keep her safe
But I can't.
I can't.
I... can't.

This is a time of realization.
I can't.
Those words I wished I couldn't say.
I can't.
I finally accept it.
I can't

But oh, I wish I could...