There's one thing that will never change


No mater how hard you try


You're still always gonna have your past


There's never a goodbye





The haunting memories follow you


You rethink them back a fourth


You know that they wil always be there


& that's what makes it worse





There aint no turning back now


Their aint no turning back that night


The memories will always want you


No matter how hard you try





The endless fighting


Voices were screaming


Tears were streaming


I couldn't forget it if I tried





Cause there aint no turning back now


Their aint no way to forget


That night with you two screaming


Forever planeted in my head





I didn't know what was happening


I didn't know how it would end


All I knew was I was scared to death


& I didn't want this again





Its been 9 years now


But I won't forget that fight


A plate of food left your hand


& went off & set flight





It slammed the wall to the left of me


the food landed infront of me i realized


& you never tried to stop it


permanently stuck in my eyes





Its been 9 years now


But I swear I won't forget


That night where you went crazy&


left us all for dead





But it wasn't really just a night


But a childhood I lost


You being an alcoholic


This is what it cost





I don't remember hanging with daddy


I don't remember talking to you


All I remember is bringing you coffee


& plates of your food





I was only 5 years old


& this is what's in my memory


Daddys up in bed


I wonder if he'll come see me





But I knew even then


If you came down the stairs


That objects would go flying


Or end up with broken chairs





You don't understand the damage you caused


You think an apology could take it all back


You made me scared of living


& left me with a permant crack





There aint no stitches to heal me


The damage has been complete


You weren't ever physical


But your words left me beat



The words already struck me


The ones you cant regret


Its too late to say you're sorry


Cause I will never forget





You left me here with nothing


But a memory set in stone


I have to make life my own now


I'm walking on my own





You left me with broken wings


& I'm horrified I'll fall


But you won't ever understand


How you caused it all.





i know life will still go on


More will happen too


But I won't forget the night. &


I blame it all on you.