Misery

i say I'll see you soon,
but soon ain't getting closer,
tomorrows on its way,
but today is never over,
the sun brings a new start,
but life only shows me dark,
even crowded by others,
loneliness still leaves a mark,
they say things get worse,
before they reach better,
worse is all that's here,
and it seems to last forever,
the forecast reads clear,
but my mind stays clouded,
my heart is reading pain,
there ain't no doubt about it,
once you left my life,
my life went to ashes,
once my spirit was whole,
now it only crashes,
i wait for your return,
and pray our just around the corner,
but every corner i turn,
despair grips me stronger,
i try not to live off hate,
but hate lives off me,
it can't be just to hate,
but hate keeps me happy,
how much more can i stand,
when i don't even have my crutches,
you were my all,
and now I'm in misery's clutches.