Questions I ask myself everyday.

This is why I'm here? Do I truly deserve to be apart of these people?
I honestly don’t know.
All I want to do is belong. Things I see, feel, and hear. They mean nothing to me.
Since half of the things I see are illusions
the things I hear are all lies!
the things I feel aren’t even real, I am lost and confused and nothing in this world makes sense.
why does this world have to be so cruel? Can I truly survive this life?
Or am I destined to fail at everything?
Will everything I touch turn to ashes?

My life, my happiness, my purity, my love, my pain, my dreams, and all of my hopes are nothing!!!!!!
My questions stay unanswered, I stay unfulfilled and unhappy.
Do I exist to make a difference? Or do I exist to be mocked? Does my existence really matter?
Here’s my answer: NO! I don’t matter. I didn’t matter yesturday, or last week and guess what else!
I WON’T MATTER IN THE FUTURE!!!!!!!!