I'm no longer aware of sleep
It's only replaced with fear
Not one single wink
For my mind is never clear

It doesn't make sense
Your always in my head
Everyone is amiss
Sometimes I wish you dead

Even when surrounded by love
My heart is still uncertan
Because with every shove
My heart had closed another curtain

I grew to trust no one
You toughened my heart and skin with scars
I learned to love being alone
You tortured me every moment near or far

Sleep from me you can rob
And you may always cause strife
But one fact you can't dodge
You can't control my life

So my dear beloved brother
who did me so much wrong
If you even cared or bothered
You are the one who made me strong