dont know

September 22, 2009
By Anonymous

Cutting, burning, and bruising the skin,
Razors, scissors, blades, and pins
Jesus, when does it end
Phases that I go through
Dazed and I am so confused
Days that I don't know who
I am.
It feels like it’s all crashing down
Like it’s all falling down around
Me. and I don’t know
What to say or what to do.
How to act.
Cutting, burning, and bruising the skin,
Razors, scissors, blades, and pins
Jesus, when does it end
Phases that I go through
Dazed and I am so confused
Days that I don't know who
I am.
I don’t have a hold on who I am,
don’t know what I want or how to stand
Up for myself, you’ll hear me cry
Guess im still messed up no matter how hard I try
To get help. it just doesn’t work that way
Up all hours of night and day
Trying to figure out what to say.
Cant figure it out, how
To get help, slipping under now.
Cutting, burning, and bruising the skin,
Razors, scissors, blades, and pins
Jesus, when does it end
Phases that I go through
Dazed and I am so confused
Days that I don't know who
I am.
Waking up, where am I, how long’s it been
Since I went under I don’t know when
This happened or where I am
Guess it doesn’t matter, don’t give a damn
But my arms hurt. blade’s on the floor
don’t know who I am anymore
don’t really care, all I know
These cuts arent just for show.
Hurts way deep inside
Cant escape no matter how hard I try.
Every time I move my heart breaks more.
Leaving pieces of myself on the floor.
don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
When I gave up, what I do know though
Im all messed up, no escaping now
don’t know, don’t know, don’t know,
Who I am.
Cutting, burning, and bruising the skin
Razors, scissors, blades, and pins
Jesus, when does it end
Phases that I go through
Dazed and I am so confused
Days that I don't know who
I am.


The author's comments:
i know im not the only one doing this type of thing, but when i am doing it, i feel REALLY alone. neither is anyone else who does this stuff. im always willing to talk about it if anyone wants to.(: comment me

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bebe said...
on Dec. 8 2011 at 11:31 am
i feel the same way i dont know who i am anymore.

on Aug. 9 2011 at 5:38 pm
secrets_of_silence GOLD, Gisborne, Other
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life had i loved the more
had it but passed away
as quietly as the day
ebbs from the darkening star.


-emanuel litvinoff

this is amazing i hope you one day put your name to your writng.

i been there too.


on Nov. 3 2010 at 8:31 pm
wind.and.rain.again BRONZE, Amherst, Massachusetts
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"What is it you wish to do with your one wild and precious life?" Mary Oliver

thanks for posting this, its really good. i cut and we are definetly not alone! i can really relate to this poem in the way u say u "dont know". its like i kno its all messed up but i dont kno how to be without cutting and then i just cant figure out who i am under all the pretending and then i get all awkward around people when they r so care-free and i try to pretend to be that way to but its hard. so thanks for writing this poem. i sincerely hope u can learn to heal and that ur not alone but who am i to be talking

sorry for the long tangent. keep on writing



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