August 9, 2009
By , clearwater, FL
Oppressed, deprived, and unheard
My thoughts flurry around my head like a mad dog
Don’t know where they are going, don’t care
Just running around my head for the hell of it
Just to drive me insane
Questioning, accusing, skeptical
Of all the things that happened to me
From start to finish
Twisting my beliefs into an uncouth shape
Almost unrecognizable to me
Reviewing my every move
Pondering what would have happened if I had done this or hadn’t done that
Making me doubt myself on levels where I don’t even want to be alive any more
Thinking if I had pushed harder, done better, been smarter
The judge in my head pounding his gavel after every case my mind makes against me
A steady beat of guilt pulsing from that blood red gavel.
Making me less of a person with every pound
My thoughts torment me after every move
Knowing I’m vulnerable to every criticism
My thoughts are here to stay.

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Samantha G. said...
Sept. 1, 2009 at 3:48 pm
dang i know how u feel. If ur feeling fuilty bcz of something u did, i learned that God alwasy forgives, and he forgets our trangressions. We are blamesless in his eeyes, as long as we have acepted Jesus Christ as our Savior. Jesus always forgives. He sees us thrpugh Jesus. As long as we have asked accepted Jesus and repented, we r blameless. it saved me. What about u?
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