My Everything

She seems like my world
It gives you that feeling
To almost make you hurl
But I cant be too revealing

Every time I think about it
I don't get to sleep at night
I sit up complaining
I close my eyes she's still in sight

It gives you those suicidal tendencies
The ones where you almost scream horrendously
You cant take the pain
It just seems like too much of a strain

You don't want to tell anyone
Your plot is your own
You learn the steps it takes
To correct all your mistakes

Your told all the time
That suicide is a hellacious crime
Your always torn
When you realize it all you scorn


You don't realize it
But with your demise it
Brings all of the pain
And puts too much stress on others brains

To the point of when
You snuggle in your den
Just like a bear
You don't want to care

But inside you know
It just wont go
The further you travel
The further your mind starts to unravel

You hear her on the phone
She sounds so depressed
You want to tell her your feelings
But everything will be a mess

She finds out
That in your mind
Theres quite a bit of doubt
But still she seems too kind
You can tell that she wants to cry
You listen and listen still more
Her voice makes you want to die
About this time your feeling depressed galore

You want to do everything for her
But you cant do anything to help
You are too sad for everything
Its as obvious as a dog trying to yelp

You see her she smiles
You see her and she makes you smile
You're the happiest person for a little while
But then you get stepped on like tile

Talking to her makes me soo happy
But then she's held by him and makes you feel crappy
You would do anything to be him
But the chance that that will happen is dim

I want to just be able to tell her it all
But if I do my whole world will fall
I want her to know with all my heart
But rejections hell and it will tear me apart