I cant help looking back at all the damage i've caused to myself and others, the damage is so bad it hurts me knowing that I was the one who caused it all, I cry so much, wishing i'd thought before I took the first step, I have so many regrets that I cant fix them if I even had the chance, somethings I do,...feel so right but so wrong to the people it seems to effect, I feel so good and positive that when its all over w/ it then feels so wrong, I do know that I should weigh the options and think about what will happen and how it will effect others first. I guess you can say I seem a bit selfish and worry to much about myself and what i want and need all the time rather then others, but its not even that way...