Label Me Pagan

February 11, 2013
By Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski


I walk through the doors and immediately they slap a name tag on me. Already I've been labeled. What if I wanted to be seen as The Amazing Jo instead of just "hey, I'm Jo?" Being average, I mean, who wants that? But I walk in these doors and they assume they know me better for my name. All they really see is a label, a mask I wear that was given to me. And they don't look any further than that.

I walk in the foyer and immediately the greeters swarm me. They paste smiles on their faces, and concerned, they shake my hand. Already I've been damned, in their eyes. They must save me. What if I don't want to be pitied? Is this what I get for seeking the answer? But I walk into the foyer and they assume I'll never really change. All they see is a boy in need of a god — a god thrown at me since childhood. And they don't look any further than that.

I walk deeper into the church, into their place of worship. They seat me in the visitors section, so that the pastor knows where to look when he's making a point. Already I've been grouped. What if I don't want to be just another face in a sea of pagans, all the same to them? How do they know I'm just like that guy, that girl? But I walk in to listen, and they don't let me speak... it turns out listening wasn't a choice, anyway. All they see is a lost soul, one that I tossed away long ago when my life became more than I bargained for. And they don't look any further than that.

I've gone as far as I can here. I sing their songs, though I don't understand them, and listen to their complicated parables. And while I genuinely try to find the answer, already I'm lost and I've given up. Don't they know I'm dying to find a purpose for this life? What if I pass it by? Your words go through me but that's all they do. So I stay here, for now, and all I see is this mask of holiness. And I don't look any further than that.


The author's comments:
Btw, I am a Christian, so please don't try and convert me! Lol. I am trying to write from the point of view of someone else, it's not necessarily what I think every church is like:)

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on Mar. 31 2013 at 12:40 pm
sherberteater GOLD, Fruita, Colorado
13 articles 13 photos 199 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Friends are God's way of apologizing to us for our families."

Thank God for friends like you!

Your welcome! :)

on Mar. 30 2013 at 7:28 pm
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski

Thank you :) :)

on Mar. 30 2013 at 6:23 pm
sherberteater GOLD, Fruita, Colorado
13 articles 13 photos 199 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Friends are God's way of apologizing to us for our families."

Thank God for friends like you!

This is really good. I am glad that there is another Christian out there that's not afraid to let it be known. Great job!!! :)  

on Mar. 30 2013 at 10:50 am
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski

lol, thanks :)

on Mar. 29 2013 at 10:21 pm
IndigoElisabeth SILVER, Woodbury, New Jersey
5 articles 1 photo 171 comments

Favorite Quote:
John 1:1

Great job! This is very true. (This is your prize btw)

on Mar. 20 2013 at 10:40 am
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski

It was actually a call for churches to grow, though. I'm saying we need to be more accepting and not be hypocrites, cuz some people really are trying to find answers, ya know?

on Mar. 20 2013 at 10:39 am
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski

We're not all jerks, I promise XD

Capris SILVER said...
on Mar. 19 2013 at 6:26 pm
Capris SILVER, Lovell, Maine
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Congratulations! You get to be the first Chrisitan I've met who's open-minded about Paganism. Good job. :)

on Mar. 7 2013 at 3:37 pm
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski

Thank you:)

on Mar. 7 2013 at 9:50 am
CariePierce BRONZE, Lancaster, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 48 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Imagination rules the world." -Napoleon Bonaparte

This is extremely relatable, and I greatly appreciate the point of view you chose to write this in.


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