No judgement just no understanding

March 10, 2011
I am an athiest. Well I guess some would call me half. I am looked down on, avoided, told I am wrong, and I have even lost good friends all over just this one belief. I see life a bit differently then others I guess. I have seen and went through things most couldn't even imagine. When I was younger I prayed every night, wished on every shooting star hoping just one would come true. Nothing happend, nothing got any better, no one came or gave me any guidence. Then I realized that my lifes course is all up to me. Not some greater god, or some magicle being, no just me. Some believen a religion to explain the big questions in life but in truth some things are better off unanswered. Some to have a reason to keep going in life but in the end thier still left lost. Now I am not saying that it isn't possible for a greater being to exsist, I am just saying that if there is he/she does not care for what happens to humans. Where is this great savior while starvation and disease takes over africa? Has this god saved the poor children in Iraq? How about the millions stuck in demestic violence in America and every other country? Everyone has problems even though some may have it harder, you can pray to a god and it may make you feel better at the moment but in the long run what happens? Now I only truely understand the religion of Christianity but I'm sure other religions have flaws. If this god was so forgiving then why punish a whole race just for two peoples mistake? Yes Adam and Eve ate the bad fruit but that doesnt meen punish all of us, does this seem as a forgiving act? How could this so loving god watch as so many innocent suffer? Most people give the arguement of no physical evidence but I am willing to believe with no real hard proof, but how can I with so many unseen things have shown it wrong? I am often known for hiding this believe because I live in such a religouse little town only close friends and a few select people of my family have me myself have told. Many others have found out by word of mouth and this is my first posting or any proof of my thoughts and beliefs. I am more than open to arguements to defend religion but I have not yet found one that I can't prove wrong with no thought at all. Other people can believe what they wish, I dont judge but I dont understand.

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HisPurePrincess This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 24, 2011 at 2:12 pm

I don't judge you.  I'll try and answer you the best I can.  When you pray "you must ask in faith and without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind.  That man ought not to expect he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways."  That's from the book of James in the Bible.  When you pray you need faith that God is going to answer you.  Not necessarily fulfil your... (more »)

EmilyBuz13 replied...
Aug. 7, 2011 at 6:32 pm


When i was younger i %100 believed but after so much of nothing chaging and things only getting worse and seeing so many innocent people have to suffer i slowly started losen it and now im to the point where i just dont even believe he cares because in my entire life not 1 of my prayers ever came true.

HisPurePrincess This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Aug. 10, 2011 at 2:10 pm
I don't have much to say to that except, I'm sorry.  People seem to take that the wrong way, but really I AM sorry for you.  I hope that God will show himself to you, and that you will see him for the amazing father he is.  Now I feel like that sounds as if I think you're stupid not to believe in him.  Maybe I do, I guess I just because there's no way I couldn't believe in God, it's harder for me to sympathize with non-believers.  Can you "hear" my tone of voice, er, fin... (more »)
HisPurePrincess This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 17, 2011 at 11:51 am

All right.  I'll try and put my thoughts down as best as I can.  I'm a Christian, and I truly understand why some people DON'T understand.  Us humans are very controlling.  This is MY life, I'll live it MY way, and nobody should tell me I'm wrong.  That's why most people have a problem with God.  

God exists to me.  If I'm a Christian, then I have to believe that God is in control, God knows what's best, God is perfect and I'm ... (more »)

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