Everyone always says be yourself, but what do you do when you have no idea who yourself is? Sometimes I'll sit in my room and pretend I'm someone else, someone who knows who they are. Someone I wish I was. Someone who has something I want. Whether it's happiness, the boy I like, or a cool jacket I can't help it. I wanna be them. When I look in the mirror I try to put a name on the image. I come up with nothing. I try to fake that I know who I am, but please who am I kidding? I want to know who I am I just can't seem to figure it out. When I figure myself out I can stop pretending, but for now I'll keep on the mask that I wish was my face.
May 27, 2011