Sometimes I wonder if your heart can only be shattered once, if the first time someone sucks the life out of you it is also the last. And when it’s bad enough, if every other relationship your in just doesn’t matter. If every other person you’re with is just a plea to not be alone. And when he cheats or he leaves its incredibly easier than it should be because in reality you never held on tight enough to have something to lose. So you spend every ounce of energy you have making yourself believe that the ghost of that one man doesn’t linger inside you. But you feel it every day, I feel it every day.
May 3, 2011