What if? This question I ask myself everyday. What if is a question that affects not only my mind set but, basically all parts of my life. Like in this really complicated case I keep asking myself what if? What if he doesn't like me? What if I'm too fat for him? What if he's lying about everything? What if he's doing this because he feels sorry for me? What if I'm just a girl on his check list? These are not only the what if questions that I ask myself. It's just that I've been with through so many things with him. I mean he broke my heart. How I am I supposed to "love or really like him" knowing that he'll probably break my heart again? How am I supposed to know if he really cares if its just a list for him. It could be real and right for me. Or it could be fake and wrong to him. And what if we do get together and I break my friend's heart, a.k.a his ex? What will I do then? I just can't get someone and then lose someone. I guess I just have a whirlwind of questions. What if? What if?
December 5, 2010