Days drag on. Slowing. Memories losing there clarity. Fading. No sleep for days. Drifting. Inbox is empty. Wishing. My life around me is. falling. Falling apart with just the mention of your name. Crying. Alone in the darkness. Trying. Trying to claw my way back to the light. Lighting. I watch the candle flames. Flickering. They are making fun of me. Mocking.Showing me that like them i will die. Sighing. I breath in and let the thought wash over me. Crashing. Like a wave on a beach.Crashing. I will die, but how...happy or sad? Choosing. Happy i decide, so i send you a message. Waiting. But no response comes in, inbox. empty. So i try and move on. Living. But the days drag on. Slowing. Memories of you. Fading. No sleep for days. Drifting. Drifting into my fake happy. Smiling.
February 24, 2010