like in alice in wonderland or perhaps narnia I pass through the threshold to enter a totally different world only I do this on purpose and consciously. I disappear to where nobody can find me. I disappear to where the world beyond such boundaries becomes non existent. those that find themselves lucky enough to cross with me experience the same thing and we become the only inhabitants. it’s better than an out of body experience because it is reality and not just my thoughts, it is better than wonderland or narnia because such a place like mine really does exist. and only I can control the coming and going and whose there and whose not. when I’m gone I feel ecstatic and that I know who I am and I am who I want to be. I am far from insecure far from awkward and immature. instead I love myself and know what I want and what I need I can accept and detect right from wrong. I have found me there and found my center my peace.