Silent No More MAG

December 22, 2007
By Anonymous

“Is he gay?”
"I think so.”
“Yeah, I'm pretty sure.”
“Ask him.”
“Hey, are you–”

The last period bell cut off the cacophony of fresh gossip. My ears burned with embarrassment, and I walked away as quickly as possible, feeling clunky and awkward. There had always been rumors about my sexual orientation, but the painfully straightforward questions made me cringe. I tried to shrug off the girls' malice as ignorance, but I became preoccupied with thought. My blood rose with anger as I heard their laughter in the background. Inhibitions blinded, I rashly shouted, “Some people are so rude!”

“You f-----t!”

“Wow! I haven't heard that before. You have to be the wittiest people I've encountered.”

This would have been a perfect response if I had said it aloud. In reality, as a shy, easily embarrassed freshman, I had yet to stand up for myself, let alone defend my sexual orientation. I wanted to tell someone what had happened, but I was too embarrassed by the situation. I had experienced gay jokes and “playful” comments before, but the hateful word those girls had used felt like a knife in my chest. A myriad of insecurity, second-guessing, and self-denial ­silenced me.

After weeks of agonizing and hiding the secret, I promised myself that I would never be silenced again. Gradually, I came out to my closest friends, then my sister, and finally my parents. With their support, I grew more comfortable, and I saw changes in my disposition. My face no longer reddened at the mention of homosexuality, and instead of slouching away from intrusive questions, I proudly proclaimed, “Yes, I am gay.”

It is difficult for me to pinpoint the moment of my epiphany, but as I gained confidence, I was finally able to face the ignorance and homophobia in my school. I spoke up with authority, and people began to listen and respect me. They recognized that I was not weak because of my sexual orientation and that I would not degrade myself with silence.

I became a leader in my school, and during sophomore year, I joined the Gay-Straight Alliance. My participation has helped me accept myself and forgive those girls and the others who have hurt me with their ignorance.

Hate is unproductive. I've learned that I cannot hold grudges or become bitter toward people who try to hurt me; their hate comes from misinformation and ignorance. My experiences have helped me to better understand homophobic people and to see the good in many of them.

My trials have been a blessing in disguise. Though I was knocked down, I built myself back up with clear goals and responsibilities. I now have two objectives: to provide a safe community for gay students, and to educate those who harass us.



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on Mar. 24 at 11:03 pm
CatNovelist SILVER, Berkeley, California
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on Jan. 16 at 3:02 pm
malikgoodcake GOLD, Sacramento, California
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You should not bully anyone. You don't know what they been through. Ultimately you shouldn't bully others on their appearance and personality.

on Sep. 12 2017 at 2:01 pm
BecomingCameron00 BRONZE, Plato, Missouri
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when i came out as transgender everyone sees me as some freak of nature an i don't have the guts to stand up to the bullies an i get the gender rolls thrown at me as well

on Sep. 12 2017 at 1:41 pm
BecomingCameron00 BRONZE, Plato, Missouri
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i can relate to this so much because i am Transgender and i am known as the tranny kid at my school an it sucks because i am so used to bullying, but its only my second week of school

on Apr. 13 2017 at 12:47 pm
bo_olsen PLATINUM, St George, Utah
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I can relate to bullying about my sexuality, because I recently came out as gender fluid, and people are always throwing gender specific pronouns at me, although I am not brave enough to say that my hardships have been a blessing, because they haven't to me. I am a coward of sorts, and surprised at myself for even coming out at all. Cheers to you!

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good story, w/ classic ending! check out my work too if you have a chance!

hailey011001 said...
on Jan. 31 2017 at 3:28 pm
hailey011001,
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You are very brave, many others wouldn't have your courage. Keep strong, I am so glad you have gotten to the point of acceptance. :)

on Dec. 8 2016 at 1:41 pm
ramosfreddy BRONZE, Sacramento, California
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pretty cool that you are able to do all this. love this story.

on Dec. 8 2016 at 1:30 pm
GeriskHer BRONZE, Sacramento, California
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pretty cool that you're able to do all of this. not a lot of people that i know of, would have been able to done what you have done.

PersonMan said...
on Nov. 7 2016 at 5:08 pm
Perfect reaction. Honestly, who cares what they think of you? The people that truly are your friends are those who can accept such facts. I mean, what's wrong with homosexuality? Maybe I'm saying this because I'm bisexual, but still. It's really not that big of a deal, and if people make it, screw them! There are other people.

on Oct. 10 2016 at 4:22 pm
NinjaEmily BRONZE, Littleton, Colorado
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I wish people could be strong like this. Sure it takes awhile, but we all need to be strong

H3LLBORN said...
on Sep. 19 2016 at 2:02 pm
H3LLBORN,
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Whatever comes, just face it. It will be fine for its ur life and its u who is living it.Stand up for what u feel is right for u.

on Aug. 16 2016 at 3:44 am
morbidgirl GOLD, Manila, Other
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im not belong from an lgbt group but i am bullied due to my physical appearance and now i felt motivated and i will do my deeds to be a better one like you :)

on Apr. 20 2016 at 2:01 pm
Peanutgirl99 GOLD, Middleville, Michigan
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This is extremely powerful. Good job

gio2656 said...
on Apr. 13 2016 at 2:41 pm
gio2656, Easley, South Carolina
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this really hit home.

on Apr. 3 2016 at 12:42 pm
StephanieMichelle98 SILVER, Syracuse, Utah
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"The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain."
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This was so good! I feel like people are afraid of the unknown and that's why they bully. Bullying isn't right. We need to end bullying before it ends someone else. We have too many people in this world who are too afraid to be openly gay because of the ignorant people. I fully support people who are gay because they are who they are and it's not my job to change that. My job is to stand by their side and to be their friend.

Goteeem said...
on Apr. 1 2016 at 2:59 pm
Goteeem,
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I don't think bullying people is right. Is not okay to bully someone just because you are insecure of yourself

Paty said...
on Apr. 1 2016 at 9:47 am
I feel bad with this kid!

on Mar. 30 2016 at 1:36 pm
Brendan1530 BRONZE, Grandville, Michigan
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congratulations on coming out. that must have taken a lot of courage, especially after how those girls treated you!

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on Mar. 30 2016 at 1:34 pm
dylllllllll, Wyoming, Michigan
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good job




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