why am i numb?

Of course I was angry. Or at least I thought I was. Normal people would be mad…right? Shouldn’t I be sobbing? Crying my eyes out for everyone to see me and all my embarrassment? Oh what fun another high school relationship ended. Almost like saying oh another homework assignment. This stuff happened all the time so I’m reacting normally ……right? Why can’t I feel this? Shouldn’t it hurt to lose the one you love? And yes I did love Bryan. So I should be in pain… right? Confusion for lack of emotion swallows me leaving this weird smirky face plastered upon me for the rest of the day. I know that I care. I know that he did too. Love is a feeling so why am I so numb? What is wrong with me?