The scars that he ‘d left me were buried deep , deep within me. I could hardly move. Every inch of my body hurt and the emotional aspect of it hurt as much. My jaw line felt dislocated and in my mouth , there was a filthy taste, on my tongue. Then the nauseating smell got to me. I felt like my world was spinning around. I felt like my head was ready to explode, as if someone was hammering it. My ears were ringing and all I wanted to do was cry. Cry like I did alot this days. Wth my two small fragile hands I clamped them around my head. It was going to burst. My body shook violently , uncontrollably. I couldn’t take it anymore! The control! The Pain! And most of all , HIM! I could no longer live like this!
August 30, 2011