My heart feels like someone threw it in a blender. I hate Facebook. It just causes problems. Like today for instance, I was looking at my friend’s wall and saw the current object of my affection’s name. So being a teenage girl, obviously I clicked. When my eyes landed on his relationship status it said “In a Relationship with Holly.” I’m not Holly. I was crushed with a capital “C”. I liked him so much and now to find out he has a girlfriend, who’s prettier than me. I guess in a way it was better to find out this way and not ask him out, like I was going to, and be personally rejected. I probably would’ve broken down and started crying right then and there. I couldn’t just leave my aching heart alone after seeing this. Oh no, because Facebook lets you see all the mushy lovey-dovey B.S. that they can put up there. So I go and I look to see what they say to each other, to see if they’re serious. They are. Another knife in the heart. Then the worst of it: him saying how much he’ll miss her next year when he goes to college. No, wait, I lied. That’s not the worst of it. The absolute worst thing is that I still have to see him everyday at work. I’m not sure how I’m going to face him. I knew he was too good to be true. Maybe I was too quick to judge Dom. But he was being a jerk. Why do I care all guys are jerks at times. Why does Facebook always crush my dreams?
November 15, 2011