Strong As Fire

May 21, 2011
By ckenzi DIAMOND, Hutchinson, Kansas
ckenzi DIAMOND, Hutchinson, Kansas
64 articles 45 photos 9 comments

Favorite Quote:
Trying to forget someone you once loved is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

Phil 1:7- For it is right of me to feel this way about you because I hold you very dear to my heart.


I was at a campfire tonight, roasting marshmallows and laughing with friends, but if you had been there, you would have known something was wrong. My laugh wasn’t as real, my smile wasn’t as bright, and I was trying not to cry.

If you were there, you would have known that my heart is so broken and life has turned dull for me. I don’t care to talk to people, I don’t care to sing, and nothing interests me. I just do it all to keep my sanity. If you were there you would have looked into my eyes and asked me if I was ok. I would have said yes, but then my tears would have fallen onto my cheeks like they did ten months ago when I last saw your face.

You would have asked me what’s wrong and I’d have said, “I thought he was the one. I just don’t understand why it happened. I know you’re in the same place as me, and it’s horrible. My heart feels like someone slammed a hammer into it, over and over again. He told me so many lies and I believed every one of them. How could I have been so naïve? Everything that he is saying now is stuck in my head. He says that I’m worthless, stupid. I believe him.

The tears keep coming and coming. Every day I wake up thinking that I’m strong enough to let God take control over my emotions, but every day, my thoughts go back to him and I lie here broken. Sometimes I hate him so much, I wish he were dead. Other times, I still love him. I am just tired of the pain and tired of the tears. I want to be myself again. I want to have a desire to live. I want to be loved, cherished and held like I was the most prized possession in the world.

I want to be precious to someone. He pinky promised me that he would never leave, but then he left. He left me by myself, used and abandoned. All of his promises faded while his rumors spread. I never thought I would be in this place. I thought it was love. I know love isn’t real, but I used to think it was.”

My head would have been buried in your chest and you would have been stroking my hair, whispering comforting words. I would have pushed away and tried to believe what you are saying, but we both know that I’m never going to believe that love is real. We both know that nothing could have stopped this hurt. So without you to see through my mask, I smiled. I laughed. No one knew that I was breaking.

You would have known.



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on Jun. 8 2011 at 8:51 am
Leena7395 SILVER, Spring Grove, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
Be who you are because those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter.

I love it :) It's so sweet, and really touching. Kind of sad, but that's okay. It was great!

on Jun. 8 2011 at 6:32 am
Odessa_Sterling00 DIAMOND, No, Missouri
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All gave some, some gave all. -War Veterans headstone.

Really good, I like how the ending goes back to what you said in the beginning. Please read some of my stuff, i've written a ton of things.

on Jun. 6 2011 at 12:38 pm
musicprincess PLATINUM, Braselton, Georgia
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Favorite Quote:
They say that love is forever, your forever is all that I need

I love this. A definite 5 stars! It's so bittersweet and I can relate to it. Keep writing :) you have great talent!

on Jun. 2 2011 at 11:39 pm
smilesunshine PLATINUM, Puyallup, Washington
34 articles 4 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If you're lucky enough to be different from everyone else, don't change to be the same." ~Taylor Swift

Oh. My. Word.

This was so good. I can totally relate to the narratartor. Ecept for the fact that I still believe in love.

Keep writing! :D This is really great.


on Jun. 2 2011 at 8:50 am
KaylynVictoria SILVER, Breaux Bridge, Louisiana
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Favorite Quote:
Always keep your head up so you never have an excuse to look down at yourself(:

Love it! It has has just the right amount of emotion! NEVER stop writing. You have a gift....

on May. 31 2011 at 9:17 pm
booklover104 BRONZE, Stockton, California
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Favorite Quote:
I have a couple of quotes i like... \"Success is not a doorway it\'s a staircase\"
2. \"Everything happens for a reason\"
3.\"Your worth consists in what you are and not in what you have\"-Thomas Edison

i loved it, but please to those who read this, never think love is not real....there is someone out there for everyone, keep going, there is someone who will appreaciate you and love you....keep writing. =)

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on May. 31 2011 at 8:55 pm
TheScribe, Wheelersburg, Ohio
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I have CDO. It's like OCD, except the letters are all in alphabetical order. LIKE THEY SHOULD BE.

This was so good! I'm serious, i teared up a little bit lol. The emotion came through perfectly. Keep writing! :)


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