Its 5:42 and I can’t sleep. I keep having bad dreams. My room is freezing, and silent as a mouse. I can tell it’s still dark out and there is a frozen sheet of glass over the grass. I sit up and put my head on my knees. I look next to me and see what I so call my partner, sound asleep, without a worry in his mind. Why would this happen to me? I did nothing to deserve this. As I sit there quietly with my mind running quickly, I hear the wind knock upon my window as it has an answer. Then it quickly runs away. I feel as if it’s the end of the world, how can he act like nothing is wrong? What is it wasn’t for my meeting getting over early? As I sit in my bed I softly weep to myself, if only I was strong and knew the answers.
October 4, 2010