He walks in the halway everyday. Passes by my way everyday. I wonder what it would be like to be with him. To lean on his shoulder when I am sad. To ponder what we would be like if we were boyfriend, girlfriend. Every time i look at him he makes my heart stop, my stomach race with butterflies, and my face blush and smile profusely. He makes my whole day better and I always look forward to staring, and day-dreaming about him all day long. I know I will never be able to be with him for he is a teacher, and I am a student. We will be nothing more than that. Although, I may want things, I can't always have them. It will be tough to pry my mind away from what I always think of. But maybe I don't want to forget about him just yet. Maybe I just don't. Maybe there is a little part that says "go for it", "what do you have to lose", or "he's all you ever wanted, why let your dream go to waste." I don't want to let that part go because it is all of me right now. When I meet the perfect guy maybe I will try again, but that little part that is .01 of my DNA will always be there. Just like an addiction, I will never fully get rid of the urge to think about him. And I can't even tell him, to possibly get rid of these feelings for him.
What we are about
February 2, 2010