I hate this feeling. I miss him so much and I realize I can't live without him even though he hurt me so many times. He went off with my best friend and ruined everything we had together. I dedicated seven months to him. I didn't even look at another guy like I looked at him. Our hands fit like puzzle pieces. A guy has never held my hand or kissed me like he did. I saw our future together where I was the stay at home mom watching the kids in our big house in the suburbs and you worked at the Pentagon as a retired Sergeant Major in the Marine Corps. It was so perfect. I dreamed that we had so many grandchildren and we spoiled them all. I dreamed that we shared our last breath kissing each other. But that is all gone now, because you couldn't resist temptation.