I Know About the Pain, Love

February 10, 2010
By PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."


He used to have long, wavy black hair, but he cut it all off. I think it looks better this way. He wears several rings and a necklace with a little bell. It means something to him, but I won’t tell. That meaning belongs to him. It’s not my place to give it away.

I believe his hands and arms are his defining points. They are permanently marred by cuts, burns, and scars. They stand for his reckless attitude, his all-fun-and-games-until-someone-gets-hurt-and-it’s-usually-me mindset, and of course, his pain. His emotional anguish, his torture, his suffering. We are alone together.

But we are not alone.

And we are not together.

To me, our relationship goes so far beyond the depths of traditional high school relationships. Those are puddles created by a lovely spring rain next to the terrifying, deep, dark trench that is our friendship. It is based on a love so strong that it defies words and breaks down the barriers of what teenagers should be capable of feeling. It is based on his need to protect my childlike innocence. He lost his so unfairly. It is based on my attempts to comfort him, my attempts to shield him from The Pain. It would be an insult to our closeness to “go out.” Plus, who would accept the good girl and the bad guy?
But I love him. I want him in every way.

Shh. That part’s a secret.

I look closely at him. He’s smiling, but it isn’t real. A genuine smile would light up those beautiful eyes. This one doesn’t quite reach, though it would fool someone who didn’t know about The Pain. There are people out there who feel close to him, who may never understand who he really is. He could do that, if he wanted to. Hiding is a strength of his.

Hide from your fears.

Hide the cuts.

The Pain won’t find you this way. I’m sure of it, love.

Oh, his hands. I hold them, feel him shiver. It’s not cold in here, he must be scared. I trace his scars, my fingertips barely grazing his skin.

I’m at a loss.

What do I do to heal The Pain love? I can’t fix you, but maybe we can find the tools you need to fix yourself. We’ll heal your heart together.
The tremors rocking his tall, thin frame are beginning to slow. I’m not here to hurt you, honey. His whole body is slowly beginning to relax. His breathing steadies, his muscles loosenup, and soon he is completely at ease with me. I grasp the necklace he gave me, a silver chain with a single charm, a yin yang symbol. "It fits us perfectly," he told me. I look up, and unintentionally meet his gaze.

Suddenly

Our lips are touching.

It’s an amazing sensation. It’s full of all the things that we wanted to say that couldn’t be spoken aloud. It’s full of genuine passion and love and safety and just feels absolutely right.

You’re right for me.

We are not alone, but we are together. And that is how we’ll get through it all.

It’ll be ok.


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on Aug. 19 2011 at 7:02 pm
JoPepper PLATINUM, Annandale, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Freedom is the ability to not care what the other person thinks."

"Not all those who wander are lost" --JRR Tolkien

"When you are listening to music it is better to cover your eyes than your ears." --Jose' Bergamin

you're more than welcome!!!! :D

on Aug. 18 2011 at 11:24 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

yeah, i know what you meann. ive been working on it thoughh :) thanks for readingg!

on Aug. 18 2011 at 7:51 pm
Danealle SILVER, Wheeling, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
Anything is possible with a smile and goal in mind.

This is chilling, but warm hearted. I would watch the word choice. 

on Aug. 16 2011 at 4:36 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

aww thankss! :)

on Aug. 16 2011 at 2:25 pm
SaritaFajita BRONZE, Arlington, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
- In your anger do not sin.
Psalm 4:4

- "Love the life you live, live the life you love." -bob marley.

Love it !(:

Your an amazing writerr<3


on Aug. 14 2011 at 6:17 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

thank you!

on Aug. 14 2011 at 3:24 pm
JoPepper PLATINUM, Annandale, Virginia
35 articles 0 photos 782 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Freedom is the ability to not care what the other person thinks."

"Not all those who wander are lost" --JRR Tolkien

"When you are listening to music it is better to cover your eyes than your ears." --Jose' Bergamin

Very good job I really liked it!!!! :D

on Jul. 21 2011 at 6:07 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

not directly. i mean they're both about the same thing and theyre very similar. almost to the point where i shouldve just combined them into one piece, but its not like two parts of a whole

.Izzy. BRONZE said...
on Jul. 21 2011 at 4:42 pm
.Izzy. BRONZE, Broadview Heights, Ohio
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I'm assuming this is related to your other story, The Yin Yang Symbol?

on Jul. 13 2011 at 6:11 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

:/ i hope you're not just like him. he's a miserable person. if you are, i wish you the best and i hope that everything starts looking upp. thanks for reading :) <3

on Jul. 12 2011 at 10:08 pm
Wow. I related to this girl's "love". I'm pretty much like him in every way....still, a fantastic job!

on Jul. 12 2011 at 4:04 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

who is that byy? I think i'd like to read itt :) and thank youu!

on Jul. 12 2011 at 10:30 am
JustEmily PLATINUM, Cicero, Indiana
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That's HAWT!

I like how some of the girl's thoughts throughout the story correspond to the title. I always find that interesting. I also enjoyed the concept. It kind of reminded me of the book "Hush, Hush" what with the good girl falling for the bad guy. Good story.

on Jun. 28 2011 at 12:10 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

i know rightt? thanks so muchh, im glad you enjoyed itt :)

on Jun. 24 2011 at 11:54 pm
IAmWhoIWantToBe PLATINUM, Manila, Other
41 articles 0 photos 650 comments

Favorite Quote:
‎"I’m learning how to drown out the constant noise that is such an inseparable part of my life. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. I only have to follow my heart and concentrate on what I want to say to the world: I run my world." - Beyoncé

Oh, I wish there is a guy like him waiting for me. This story is awesome. :)

on Apr. 25 2011 at 5:49 pm
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

yaayy thank youu!

SJ_101 said...
on Apr. 25 2011 at 2:50 pm
SJ_101, Somewhere, New York
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Oooh, this writing piece is full of so much passion! :D I love it, I love your writing style. Your words are put together in a beautiful manner. I love how you portray your desires. I also love the details!

Keep writing, dear! :)


AsIAm PLATINUM said...
on Apr. 3 2011 at 9:16 am
AsIAm PLATINUM, Somewhere, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
"According to some, heroic deaths are admirable things. (Generally those who don't have to do it. Politicians and writers spring to mind.) I've never been convinced by this argument, mainly because, no matter how cool, stylish, composed, unflappable, manly, or defiant you are, at the end of the day you're also dead. Which is a little too permanent for my liking." — Jonathan Stroud (Ptolemy's Gate)

haha I'm glad! Keep writing!

on Apr. 3 2011 at 8:56 am
PaRaNoRmAl627 GOLD, Mountainside, New Jersey
15 articles 0 photos 297 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Do what you want. If it's something you'll regret in the morning, sleep late."

thank you so much i soooo appreciate it! made my morningg :)

AsIAm PLATINUM said...
on Apr. 2 2011 at 8:12 pm
AsIAm PLATINUM, Somewhere, North Carolina
48 articles 3 photos 608 comments

Favorite Quote:
"According to some, heroic deaths are admirable things. (Generally those who don't have to do it. Politicians and writers spring to mind.) I've never been convinced by this argument, mainly because, no matter how cool, stylish, composed, unflappable, manly, or defiant you are, at the end of the day you're also dead. Which is a little too permanent for my liking." — Jonathan Stroud (Ptolemy's Gate)

I just read some other comments and I saw some people saying your capitalization was weird.  I thought it was awesome.  "The Pain" added a sort of... yikes-ish quality.  Just pain is what you get from a papercut - this is not on that level, so it can't be written the same.  :)


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