December 5, 2012
I don't get it Lord
This doesn't make since
Why do I feel surrounded by loneliness?
I don't understand why my heart is so heavy
But when I tip it over it’s filled with emptiness.
Let’s just pretend...
That I didn't exist,
And all of my sins were just for pretend.
And the only things that matter are my thoughts.
And how hard I try to be like them
The people of the earth
The children of the world
Who teach me to be a bad girl
And that beauty is only found in eyelashes n curls.
They say to live for today
because 2maro's the end of the world.
They tell me “Don’t talk” because nobody’s listening.
They say don’t beg
because their behinds, you'll be kissing.
But the more I obey
the further I’m drifting.
I guess I should pray way more than I’m wishing
Could it really be the end me
Or could it be the end of them.
could this really be true?
Is this the end of all men?
could time finally stop ticking?
can the devil really win?
There’s so many questions and not enough time.
Not enough words to go in this rhythm.
not enough “sorrys” to fix this life
not enough days before we all die...
but before I go let me say this-
time only stops because we don’t hear the ticks.
Love only fails because money makes it sick.
And our enemy only wins when we post the white flag on a stick
But still I wonder
What is defeat
Is it when the other party says “mission complete”
Or is it when your enemy falls to his knee
Could it be when man gives in and pleads for mercy
Lord, there’s so many questions floating around this room
Spoken by the loneliness that fills my tomb
And taunted by the emptiness in heart
Betrayed by world and makes fear bleed from my wounds
But I just listen and I don’t speak
Why talk when nobody listens to me
Why question a path that nobody seeks
Why triumph the world when we’re all in deceit
I leave it up to you Lord, to rescue me.

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Shelby J. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Dec. 12, 2012 at 2:19 pm
I love this, and I totally know how you feel. I gotta say, I love the internal rhyme in this.
shayKittyFlcoka replied...
Dec. 14, 2012 at 6:53 pm
aww thanks! i really did appriciate that!!
BobbiJames said...
Dec. 8, 2012 at 5:55 pm
learn to  spell, you will be more professional. Thinkin, is not a word. :/
shayKittyFlcoka replied...
Dec. 8, 2012 at 6:03 pm
I usually write the way i tlk. when i speak to the Lord i tlk to Him as if no one is around. i pretty sure as long he understands me and i understand him the rest doesnt matter. appriciate ur concern tho. i kno how to spell. this is how i type. not gonna change sorry.
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