Doorstop (I've Never Been More Aware)

January 26, 2013
By BeautifulStream PLATINUM, Richmond, Virginia
BeautifulStream PLATINUM, Richmond, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Today I don't need a replacement. I'll tell them what the smile on my face meant."- Peter Gabriel, Solsbury Hill


I feel like a doorstop
Propping the way for unwanted guests
I feel like a kayak
Plunging over the cliff that will lead to their deaths
I feel like an arrow
Causing anything but smiles as it hits its mark
I feel like a time bomb
Ticking to zero on a volatile clock
And I've never been more aware
How each breath I take seems to scrape in my throat
And I've never been more aware
Of how the water that cleanses only makes me choke
And I've never been more aware
That I stare with dulled eyes, unresponsive to change
And I've never been more aware
Of the finite thread that separates my life from pain
I wish I were a brain cell
Always alight with a flurry of facts
I wish I were a magnet
An object that doesn't need charm to attract
I wish I were a painting
Colorful canvas hung up for all to see
I wish I were a music note
The sounds collide to form a symphony
And I've never been more aware
Of the pleasure that stems from mechanical things
And I've never been more aware
That before I can talk, I must first learn to sing
And I've never been more aware
Of how silence has shapes and speaks words of its own
And I've never been more aware
When I need someone, I'm still designed to be alone
And I've never been more aware
That my shell of a body holds nothing more of use
And I've never been more aware
Of how much that I gain when I'm destined to lose
I feel like a doorstop


The author's comments:
Can't really explain where it came from. Born from feelings of uselessness and things that I consider "wrong" with me, I think. Somewhat partially vaguely inspired by The Mountain Goats. My first attempt at writing "good" lyrics.

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on Apr. 17 2013 at 11:01 am
troubled-times GOLD, Richmond, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Talents include talking about the X-Files and picking up dogs."

HAAA. I KNEW THIS WAS THE MOUNTAIN GOATS-Y SONG. ALSO I LOVE IT A WHOLE LOT IN CASE I FORGOT TO TELL YOU THAT ONE TIME.


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