I'm just trying to smoke my pain away, people always talking about how its not safe, but its my life so i do it anyway, I hope to get cancer so I only live a couple more days. Tears coming down my cheeks, close your ears if you don't want to listen to the words that i speak. If your going to listen please don't ask any questions, I really don't want people in my life making my decisions. Nobody can stop me from doing anything stupid, why do u think i do it. Please i don't do this for people to feel bad, I do this because I'm sad. I don't want any attention, when i look at life this is my reflection it seems like my depression is and uncured infection, I'm just looking for god to give me a direction. But right now he doesn't have time for me, i should be happy I'm not a poor kid starving to eat. I just want my old life back, back when i was glad, glad that i had a girl to say i love you back. I should stay out of my dreams, because nothing good ever happens to me.