So I Wait

February 22, 2010
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i wait.
watching thu day grow late.
im experiencing a thing called fate.
i ask my maker where are my blessings?
im in need of help,man i been stressing.
maybe i'll never learn my lesson.
Things are,as they will be.
that boy was my contact lenses that helped me see.
I never thought that she would be me.
the girl that broke everyones heart.
I had no idea posien filled my dart.
Well at least not on purpose.
He made me feel normal,now im back at the circus.
Outta place,outta bounds.
He had me lost,now i quess im found.
Theres so much i wish he knew.
But until then ima just do what i do.
without a trace..and no clues.
He left me alone to sing the blues.
He was a dream come true.
Now he haunts my night-mares.
When i see his face i get chills and up go my hairs.
then i force myself to stop and i just sit there.
I stare.
I remember what it was like.
Talking after school, and preparing all night.
i was so excited to see him everyday.
But now all i have is a memory of his face.
I recall myself begging him to stay.
A fuzzy glimpse of me with nothing to say.
The football game.
thats the night i realized i'd never be the same.
its almost as if something took over me.
and when he looked at me i instantly got weak.
We played a game that wasnt fair.
we didnt have a prize so we gave up..we didnt care.
it was cold that night, he kept me warm.
things were going good,then came a storm.
Truth hurts.
Thats a fact.
And if i could do it all over again i would..now looking back.
I made myself a promise that i just cant quiet keep.
The word Love that wakes me in my sleep.
if i ever fall into it i promise it wont be deep.
and if i really love him i promise i wont creep.
Back to this wonderful man.
That must have been sent from a heavenly land.
He knew what to say he knew just what to do.
He knew just how to love me,his actions are proof.
Situations get ugly people do too.
But he stayed beautiful 100% thru.
People ask me "where is this man"
I tell them simply god had him a better plan.
They say it doesnt make sense.
thats what i said the first time we kissed.
holding his hand lit up my day.
and he was my motavation to behave.
Im zoned out as i type this up.
not realizing that im slam outta luck.
im recalling the past.savoring the present.
i once was his queen,but now im a peasant.
its as if we never exsisted.
I feel my heart and i try to listen.
a fairytale gone wrong a twisted 3 wishes.
A slacker turned into hard-working look there's no dishes.
My goal was for us to always be happy.
but his words did very hurtfully slap me.
i know i was wrong,but babe tell me whats right.
and answer me this how can you enjoy the morning if there is no night?
Its the simple things in life we forget.
hes not one of the things in life i regret.
paper is not enough to explain how i feel.
Its like im strung out on medicine but without a pill.
i text him..no reply.
i know when he see's my name pop up,he also see's Lie.
not a tear left in me,so i cant sit here & cry.
theres alot of fight in me tho so continue i try.
clipped my wings so no longer can i fly.
But i ask myself can i love me? Really can i?
i feel as tho ive lost some significant part of life.
Maybe i was meant to be his wife.
But time will only tell & she's not on my side.
So ill just continue to wait.wait.wait.watching my life pass me bye.





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Milo! said...
Mar. 11, 2010 at 4:48 pm
I really love this. I really like how everyone can relate to this. I hope you keep writing, because this is great. You should check out some of my stuff. I think you would like it.
 
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