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This Road

I wake up every morning
my hair in tangles
bags from the night before
pull the curtains and squint at the light
thinking about our fight
can't remember what it was about
honestly don't care
i comb my hair real quick
and hit the door on the way out

well im walking on this road
watching things pass left and right
my friends
my family
my love
my life
then i stop and stand in the middle
will someone please hit me?
wake me from this dream?
Or just kill me now
put me out of this pain
of watching the memories
all along this road

i gasp my can of cola
and break it up with a flip
walking down the street
talking to my shadow along the way
cross the road with out a glance
almost hit by a honda
they honk and i flip them off
i didn't care that i almost died
or that they saved my life
just keep sipping from my can
continue walking through all the people of this city

well im walking on this road
watching things pass left and right
my friends
my family
my love
my life
then i stop and stand in the middle
will someone please hit me?
wake me from this dream?
Or just kill me now
put me out of this pain
of watching the memories
all along this road

at a local cafe i stare into space
i should know who i am by now
but lately i have no clue
days fly by and nothing from them
just drunken nights
and loveless fights
i pay for my coffee and disappear in the crowd

on my way home
to talk to the only person i ever loved
i run into an old friend
she says "hey, hold on and grab some coffee with me"
i say "i'm sorry sweetie, i have to talk to someone back home"
Nonsense she says and drags me back into the cafe
many cups later the girl walks by
glances in the window
i catch her eyes
dripping with hurt all around
i scream her name as she finds her way
through the endless crowd

well im walking on this road
watching things pass left and right
my friends
my family
my love
my life
then i stop and stand in the middle
will someone please hit me?
wake me from this dream?
Or just kill me now
put me out of this pain
of watching the memories
all along this road

place my key in the door
and i just know somethings not right
it creeks open
and i see nothing
but my table from college
and an old chair from my child days
toss my keys on the table
wash my face in the bathroom
look up and see the note
reading "No more, Goodbye"
note in hand i fall to the floor
babe im sorry
talking to it like she was in front of me

i grab my overcoat and walk down the street
i'm gonna turn it all around
she's everything to me
well days go by and i give up hope
i run into her in that lil old cafe
and i grab her by the shoulders
look her in the eyes
and say Baby come back home
she stares blankly
before saying
"Boy, been through alot with you
first i ever said i love you too
but lately you're not who you been these past years
and until you find who you are
boy i don't know you
let alone love you."
she breezes past me and out the door
and although my hearts in two
i know she's right

well im walking on this road
watching things pass left and right
my friends
my family
my love
my life
then i stop and stand in the middle
will someone please hit me?
wake me from this dream?
Or just kill me now
put me out of this pain
of watching the memories
all along this road
along this road
this road...



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CountryProud said...
Nov. 4, 2013 at 12:53 pm:
this was an amazing song i loved it you are great!!!!
 
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DaphneeBee143 said...
Feb. 20, 2013 at 12:32 pm:
it was an amazing song.. i felt your pain and felt as though i saw everything you did.. i wanted to comfort you.. great job
 
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MysteryLover said...
Feb. 29, 2012 at 4:10 pm:
I ove your song. Its awsome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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sportsycrystal said...
May 30, 2011 at 8:19 am:
you really did a great job on this!! it's really easy to relate to
 
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TNT25 said...
Mar. 25, 2011 at 9:20 pm:
Really liked this alot, true it was a bit long, but sometimes good songs are long, that's just the way they are. Loved it.
 
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e@gles16 said...
Feb. 5, 2011 at 9:02 am:
I like this alot, totally so wonderful:)
 
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sillygirl880 said...
Dec. 15, 2010 at 5:58 pm:

WOW i have never read things that i have read like that befoere  that was amazing work keep it up

 

 
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Diva001 said...
Dec. 5, 2010 at 4:37 pm:
this is really good!! good job. how do you vote on people's stuff i couldn't figure it out
 
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SaintJamesHallow This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Sept. 26, 2010 at 8:30 pm:
Thanks for the imput :} and please read some of my more recent enteries, those are my best.
 
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tashababi said...
Sept. 24, 2010 at 2:48 pm:
i can so relate pluse you had real good imagry i didnt even notice how long it was till i was done reaing it i started scrolling up : ) i love this comment back please!!!!
 
SaintJamesHallow This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Sept. 26, 2010 at 8:36 pm :
Thanks for the imput :} and please read some of my more recent enteries, those are my best.
 
inlove44 replied...
Oct. 25, 2010 at 3:32 pm :
I love this song. What tune is it to? please reply-am like ur biggest fan!
 
SaintJamesHallow This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Oct. 25, 2010 at 5:55 pm :
Haha, I don't really have any tunes to my songs but maybe for Dear ol' Friend which is an acoustic type of song. As for being my biggest fan, you should make sure I get well known especially in my newer works. =]
 
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bubblee96This teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
May 5, 2010 at 6:05 pm:
Um, I think it might have been a little too long for my liking and I think the death was a little odd according to the beggining of the song, I would also advise not going into detail so much. The lyrics would be alot better if it was just a rough storyline with some underlaying things of all the details that happened!
 
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Bella913 said...
Mar. 24, 2010 at 7:04 am:
WELL I think its amazing. it may be long but hey, things happen. you used great descriptiong and it was just awesome. keep writing<3
 
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BriiBunny said...
Feb. 16, 2010 at 12:54 pm:
I thought that it really was very good, and there was a lot of good imagery. It would be really awesome if you put it to music. I DID think it got a little bit long.
 
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dfcgbhdfvg said...
Sept. 29, 2009 at 1:33 pm:
It was a good start the part of constantly wanting to die was kind of wierd
 
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