I

Wake in red light

Think I'm outside

It is a recurring dream

Fear

Lead fills my lungs

Bones become dust

I hear my heart scream

You can keep your sympathy

It's just how I live

This is not a new thing for me

This is something I have to face on my own

Alone

Choke

On every word

That comes out my mouth insincere

Laugh

At me as I

Spill tears from my eyes like you never will

You can keep your sympathy

It tastes just like abuse

Don't tell me you understand

You are not the one inside my head

You wrap your pity around my throat

Your face your voice make me choke

You can keep your sympathy

It feels just like a noose

You can choke on your sympathy

Poorly masked bigotry