I'm stressed
Extremely depressed
I've lost all interest
In existence.
I'm not religious
So to me
Living is pointless.
I hate this
I'm becoming even more faithless
Constantly running in mental races
Losing every one of them
Becoming disgraced
My mind has become erased
Holding on because I've never felt embraced
I'm encased
In my eternal birth place
Yet I'm always on my deathbed
I'm always filled with regret
I hate it
Immortalized by anger
And hatred
I'll run as far as I can
But I'll never make it
Falling on my face again
I can't stop breathing sin
But I guess it's better than drinking gin
It's just as cancerous
But at least it doesn't hammer us
It's humorous
That I'm filled with lust
Of being better than bronze gold or even rust
So ask if you must
I'm never getting better
Never even read that mental letter
Didn't even bother putting it through the shredder.

I call myself the mad hatter
Cause each decision I make
Keeps getting badder and badder
A hateful cake filled with deathlike batter
Yeah I'm sad
I keep getting sadder
Every bite I take just makes me fatter
If the choice is living or death
I'd rather take the latter.
Crazy?
Maybe.
Go ahead
Say I'm lazy
Go ahead
Call me maybe
But your words
That's what's driving me crazy
I'm filled with hurt
And my inner hell is flaming
Demons are draining
Excuse me
I'm refraining
From saying
The wrong thing
Don't call this rapping
It's just my writing
About the battles I'm fighting
It ain't that exciting
The flavor ain't that enticing
Bland cake with no icing
Yet it gets your blood pressure rising?
Disgusting.
To you
My pain means nothing
It's just something
You play
When you're rushing
Stop hushing
One more word
I'll start crushing
Your skull
With my fist.
Sorry.
Was that too sudden?

My head is filled with blood
If I could hang it
I would
I'm not just saying it
Trust me
I could
I don't know why I haven't
All new suicidal thoughts
Patent
Who cares if I had or hadn't
My life is a ball
And I just can't bat it.
Wait
What's that you say?
A new scene?
Maybe that's what I need?
Ha!
I tried it
Took all my roots
And tried to hide it
Never to find it
Making it through with all of this rhyming
But it was just a matter of time and
I realized I can't fight it
Who I am
Is like being addicted coke
Diet
So my hair
I dyed it
My clothes
Aren't brightened
Black as the night
Shadow in light
I don't care if it's not right
I tried
But I didn't like that limelight
My wrong was a fake right
I like my pants better tight.
Yeah its an addiction
I'm addicted to depression
I can't let it go
Follows me every direction
The votes are in
Anxiety won the election
So we're all dead
If I can't scrape off this infection.
I never liked this flavor
I wasn't made to cater
But I eat this cake
Like it will make me better
But all it does
Is my blood even redder.