For the past two years,
I’ve let my struggles define me.
From medicine and impatient,
To eating disorders and inner demons,
I have learned a lot.

I have been lost for a while now.
The girl I used to be has fallen off the face of the earth.
Like she has been extinct,
Never to return.
I used to be considerate and caring.
I had turned into a monster.
I lost a number of friends due to decisions made in the heat of the moment.
I never looked at the bigger picture
Or how it would impact the relationship with my friends & family.

I first lost myself in a boy with dark brown eyes and a devilish smirk.
What he took from me
Will never be returned.
In fact,
I”m uncertain if I would want it back.
He introduced me to things unmentionable.
Slowly ,
Brick by brick,
He destroyed the wall built within my heart.
The walls had been constructed years ago,
From the pain of my broken childhood,
But that’s another story.

Over the past two years,
I have grown up a lot.
I have had my fair share of mistakes,
And they are what have made me who I am.
Self discovery isn’t easy,
But it is definitely possible.