Why can’t I just disappear?
I don’t think there is anything for me here.
The end -  it is not clear
But Death I do not fear
It is the constant back and forth.
Between me and myself.
Debating my self-worth.
Trying to find some help.
I don’t know what to do
And I don’t know what to say
Everything’s different and new
Things are changing every which way
So now I sit in silent reflection
And write this poem of deep affliction
In hopes I will find some consolation
In my writing – some revelation
To who I am and what I’m becoming
My dreams and wishes and goals
My deepest desires are ever evolving
Bigger and suddenly bold
I have to make a statement
A mark to leave behind
On this world of amazement
In which I sit and write my mind
Constantly questioning the world
And our human race
Although, I am just a girl
In the mirror is what I must face