While I’m sitting here in the bathtub listening listening to the water droplets hit the water as if it were a race my mind is is heavy my heart is swollen how many times you’ve played with it poked at it whispered sweet nothings painting a beautiful picture but that’s all it was “a picture “ life itself is so dark I can’t see I put my hands out to find you but you were never found because you were seeking something else ,I don’t know what exactly,there’s a knock at the door hearing through my thought process it all brings me back to her you know that girl you loved or at least I think what do you want from me feeling like I’m a lost stone in the dirt that he seems amazed by or he just sees it doesn’t mind being walked on a million times because it never moves out of the same spot what do you want from me I will never know his lips move but I hear nothing because that’s what his actions say NOTHING a blank expression will get me through life being dead inside but being able to live at the same time emotions are out of the question unless I rather die of a broken heart cause this will live on forever this will never change this is the way of life for you this is all for you....to keep breaking me time after time