DISSIPATION UPON THE GULLIBLE

February 16, 2018
By Ava_Nicole_D BRONZE, Omaha, Nebraska
Ava_Nicole_D BRONZE, Omaha, Nebraska
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As I stare at my own reflection
in the black mirror
That I cradled so tightly in my hand,
A translucent water droplet falls from my eye
And slides down my cheek,
Representing my childhood that withered away from me
Sooner than it should have.

Sitting upright in my bed
I wish I had realized it sooner.
Realized that obsessing over people
who somehow “made it” in life
Took something so delicate away from me.

I realize that I did this to myself.
Wishing and hoping and praying for this device
That made me feel that “I’m so happy I could cry!” feeling.

I wish I could take that feeling back
And tell myself it wouldn’t last.
Because I missed out
On that time with family
That I regret taking for granted
Or not saying
Or not doing
Or not posting what I want
Because of the constant fear of societies opinion

I wish for a time machine
To let me go back and tell myself
That it would take my life away from me.
Like I placed myself as the victim
In a tragic homicide.
Except I was addicted to the pain
Without even realizing it was hurting me
And the once silent killer
That I held so securely in my hand
Began to buzz.

I felt robbed
As I watched the thing my parents worked so hard for
Just to make me happy
Unknowingly waste 5 years of my life.

Because that is what I thought happiness was.
A device I held so tightly in my hand
It made my knuckles turn white.

I could never get back the time I wasted
Scrolling for countless hours
Staring at this perfect image
That I wished so badly to achieve.

And I wish it hadn’t taken me that long
To finally throw my phone across the room
And forget about it.

Be careful what you wish for.


The author's comments:

As I began to get older, I started to realize how attached I was to social media and how it was slowly hurting me. I got to breaking point and decided to take a break away from my phone. I wrote this poem as an adieu to my old self.


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on Mar. 3 at 5:18 pm
MaskedGhost SILVER, Hadley, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"My head's so tired but I don't care, no I don't
Outside the sky looks like it's burning down but
I won't fear, no I won't
Falling down like angels fighting
Stars and lightening hold me tightly" - Hazel: by Cavetown

I agree with this. Great job!

on Mar. 3 at 1:51 am
RedFlags BRONZE, Salem, Oregon
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Favorite Quote:
The first draft doesn't have to be perfect. It just has to be written.

Im new here just like you! you should read some of my poems, 2 of them have been published on the page so far. Love this piece you did

on Mar. 2 at 4:53 pm
Caidan Pilarski BRONZE, Wolcott, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
Always stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone.-Kim Hanks

This is definitely a good poem. I always prefer rhyming and patterns, though.

on Mar. 1 at 10:43 am
WolfWhisperer0911 PLATINUM, Crosby, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"For I command you, be brave and steadfast! For the Lord your God will be with you whenever you go."
-Joshua 1:9

"Throw me to the wolves, and I'll return leading the pack."- Unknown

"Never moon a werewolf." -Mike Binder

@Ava_Nicole_D Amazing poem! Genuinely relatable and the choice of words is excellent!


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