I remember a time when I used to have feelings
Like real feelings, Not feeling numb all the time
I used to be passionate, emotionally passionate, or just plain emotional
Now that wasn't always a good thing,
Usually it was misplaced emotions, but it was still there.
I still had it
I wasn't empty
I miss that time when,
When I used to feel full and useful
Like i was changing the world with every emotion I felt
With every way that I spoke up for my beliefs,
Or against injustice,
But now I just balk,
Now I just sit quietly
While I let others mistreat me
Or mistreat others
Now I don't even know what I believe
Because how can you believe in something
When you can't even feel the emotion that makes you stand up for it
I haven't answered that question
I don't know if I ever will,
But hopefully someday
Something
Someone
Some event, good or bad
Will make me realize my emotions, my beliefs
Will make me learn how to scream from every rooftop in this county,
Every rooftop in this state,
Country,
World,
That I believe in something
I don't know how to feel anymore
Something,
Someone,
Some event good or bad
Stopped me from feeling
And I don't know what to do with that information,
That realization.