I lay awake
Thinking the thoughts that I can't seem to shake.

I lay perfectly still
As my thoughts go downhill

They're constantly spinning around my head.
Spinning like the the blades on the fan I'm watching from a still position in my bed.

Insomnia has ahold of me.
I close my eyes waiting to be swallowed by darkness, but I still see.

I see like I have pictures tattooed to my the back of my eye lids.
Inhaling & exhaling. I'm Focusing on the rising and falling of my ribs.

In the quietnesss of the early morning I can almost hear my own heartbeat.
The sun is rising soon, but I've yet to sleep.

The trees blowing in the wind outside of my window catch my eye.
I notice the almost pink color of the sky.

I look for shapes in the empty spaces of the trees.
I look at the different shapes of the leaves.

I hear a vehicle lock from across the street.
I wonder if the neighbors are able to get some sleep.

I become jealous of those sound asleep around me.
Why is it that when I shut my eyes, I can still see?

I ponder on this for a while.
Hey, if I tilt my head while looking at that tree, it kind of looks like a smile.

Why are the lights to the vehicle across the street on?
A car drives by and I hear the radio thumping, but I can't hear the song.

I begin to time the rattling of my ceiling fan.
The noise is hidden by cars passing by every now and then.

I look out my window to see that the neighbor's vehicle lights have gone dark.
From outside, I hear what sounds like a dog bark.

I wonder what it's barking at.
I tell myself that I don't really care and I lay back.

I really need some sleep.
Why is my mind so strong when by body is so weak?