I wake up with invisible weights on my feet

"You Need to"

My hand is resting on the door handle of my car

"You Have to"

Slow breath, eyes closed

Prepare yourself. You Have to

Shes hugging you, you're not sure what wrong but

"You Have to, she Needs you"

The words stop in your throat and never stop in your ears and you can't keep count of the number of times "I'm sorry" and "how can I help" have thrown themselves from between your teeth

Obligatory as waking up

Every f***ing day

Some days the words are a flood but they never pass the dam of your lips

Swallow them back

Slow breath, eyes closed

You Have to

They Need you to