didn't i tell you i loved you enough?
didn't i come visit enough?
didn't i rely on you enough?
what was it that could've been so bad you had to take your own life?
what could've cut you so deep you'd leave?
what could've made you let go of the life you had the one where your babies were here?
Tell me what is it? Because i can't fathom the fact that you'd leave us behind. it must've been something so horrifying that you couldn't live another day with. Now i sit outside waiting for you to get me off the school bus but strangers walk by with their kids and i'm left holding my own hand. as i wait i know you aren't coming but i wait longer and longer and then i walk home by myself. the yellow flowers you left in my bedroom have wilted and i keep watering them but they just won't bloom again. i set your table mat out and a fork for you so we can all eat like a family again but you don't show. you are gone. just gone.