You are cowboy boots

and button up shirts.

You are fake smiles 

and silly introductions.

You are first date jitters

and rootbeer floats.

You are memories of homecoming 

and singing at the top of our lungs.

You are snowball fights

and snowman building contests.

You are cuddles in the dead of winter.

You are jokes about terrible movies 

that we watch just for giggles.

You are late nights

and long kisses. 

You are old cafes and cheeseburgers.

You are broken couches

and Elf. 

You are eggs 

and fried deer meat.

You are forehead kisses

and perfectly wrapped Christmas presents.

You are slipping through the mud

and dancing in the rain.

You are closed doors

and hidden secrets.

You are empty promises 

and tear filled eyes.

You are shaky words

and relenting lies.

You are countless deleted instagram posts

and unending questions about why.

You are gone but somehow still here.