Everything was going good, and everything was okay
The next second everything feels a different way
So I start to be mean or I start to fade
Nobody ever noticed, and then I get played
Then I get sad and everybody gets annoyed
Cause I’m the one with this big empty void
I don’t want to be needy I need to focus on myself
Everybody has their own things to work out
I gotta do me and have nobody to worry about
But that’s what’s so hard to avoid.
Worry, the wonder if somebody wants to stay around
This tiny little fear that haunts me from inside
Next relationship, I’m going into with closed eyes
I’ll try to look out for myself and keep my head high
Cause I’m the only one who knows about my phobia
One day I’ll be okay and find my utopia
My happy place, with the people I love
Cause those Ride or Dies are the ones I write of