Pirouettes of brain cells
Spiral down the drain
My emotions in a ponytail
Pulled back to keep me sane.
Stretched across nerve endings
Tightly bound with a string –

All it takes now
Is another swig of familiarity
From another earful of your pain.
It sweetens my life up,
It puts sugar in my veins.

Bare legs swing across air of a balcony;
Full of dirt but clean of boundaries –
Like all those nights in the kitchen
When your hands would strike my body
I’ve failed to forget that
You liked to send me reeling.

Back to when I tried to be Atlas
Accepting blame from the world
You put on my shoulders –
Fed from the b******* lines
You pulled out of your a**
To keep me loving you
The same as when I was little;

The same as when
All the world was
Was you.