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Elegy of a Dream

June 21, 2016
By sahibscript GOLD, Sugar Land, Texas
sahibscript GOLD, Sugar Land, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"Be impeccable with your word"


While others seek comfort in friends

in making amends and playing pretend,

I seek asylum under blankets.

I drift away to the buzzing of my erratic thoughts

so I can escape,

so I can dream.

Usually it’s the same:

a man and a woman holding hands, my parents,

inseparable except by physical confines

but in every other way a single being.

One spirit of two hearts beating in rhythm,

and aside from each other, they hold my hopes.

Surrounded by an ornate quilt,

that’s speckled by a dreamscape of shooting stars.

These wishes of mine keep them warm

and keep them together.

I always knew them that way, “together.”

But only in my dreams.

While others awaken to sunny days

to solace in a loving gaze,

I wake up to reality, which is nothing like a dream.



I force my eyelids together,

grasping at the remnants of my made-up world,

so I don’t have to pick up the pieces of this one,

but it never works.

So, I stare at time,

watching the ticking conductor for my cue.

Alas, when his hands fall,

I exhale a sigh of attrition

And upon the melody of my relief,

I am whisked back to my realm.

My artificial safety.

But lately, it hasn’t been the same.



The conductor has begun a new waltz, a new movement,

my quilt has started to unwind.

Acceptance blurs my fantasy.

I no longer look up at them, but rather I sit between them,

not by choice but by force.

And I feel them pulling away.

The conductor said it was part of the song, but my new place in the ensemble,

has given me a pulsing pain in my arms.

A fatigue I still feel too young for.

But the tempo increases and the style changes to a smooth legato,

and the resistance fades.

As I sway to the metronome.

My hands feel stronger now as my awareness crescendos,

though the quilt has long unraveled.

I don’t feel the cold anymore.

The notes, the beauty of the composition, are making sense to me now,

their harmony is fleeting.

But my melody perseveres.

I used to look up to them, until, I unknowingly forced myself upon them,

too weak, too naïve to understand.

To let the music speak for itself.

I tried to make myself their anchor, their glue, their rhythm, their pulse,

but their piece had reached its finale.

The last scale diminished.

I could never play on their behalf, or attempt to compensate for another part,

because their duet was always for two.

I tell myself that it’s just in the music.

But the conductor has shown me,

that desire.

That love.

Is mine to believe in and not others’ to protect,

my hymn doesn’t have to end.

Just because him and her do.



So now I leave them to sit alone.

Two spirits of two minds thinking out of sync

but in spite of each other, they held onto me.

So while others give in,

forsake hope and something greater to believe in,

I dream a better dream.

The author's comments:

I was inspired to write this piece as a challenge for myself to write with a specific structure, specifically tercets in which the first line is emphasized to mirror a waltz. I attempted to contribute as many things as possible from my own life in the poem, and I really tried to make it personal. The message is optimism, something I have grown to appreciate more. Enjoy!

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